Soul Print Mama: Happy Birthday Mama

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Happy Birthday Mama

Today is my mums birthday - 5 years of birthdays without you here ~ looking at photos fills my heart with sadness, because it's like my memories of you are fading. I take in the details of the photos with an almost photographic memory, trying to remember when it was taken. The expression on your face, your eyes, smile, creases, hair and just everything. I've never had this before, why now? Maybe the distance from family does that to you? Time to go home again I feel, time to reconnect and get the home grounding sorted. Photo credit to my Neice and namesake of my mother.

Introducing

Soul Print Mama, the mission of one heaven sent parent backed by the unity of other heaven sent parents and families all over the world. As a Soul Print Mama, I create in the hope I will warm hearts or start a journey into the process of healing.

There is no time frame for when a parent should start to heal. Two years on and I can honestly say I am not there yet. As with most of us, we are such experts at hiding the true feelings we have, feelings I call my Umbra of Grief. This is the place I share my innermost feelings at my lowest of lowest times. I am of the opinion that in order to know true light, you must know true darkness., everything we feel is perfectly okay. Acknowledging all of the emotions we have gives us an inner strength to rise above the cloud. Being able to share and express our feelings without judgment is such a precious commodity, for some reason or another our barriers are so far up there in fear of being hurt.
In my journey, I am finding name honors to be a starting point. It warmed my heart to know that Vikki-Ann was in the thoughts of someone else and that even though she's not here with us physically, her soul print became evident in every word written, candle lit or balloon released in her name.

"Healing may not be so much about getting better, as about letting go of everything that isn't you -- all of the expectations, all of the beliefs -- and becoming who you are." ~ Rachel Naomi Reme