Soul Print Mama: Prayers for Newtown CT

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Prayers for Newtown CT

Today I am grateful I get to hold my daughter, to watch her crouched in front of the tv unaware of what's taking place in our world. Maybe ten years from now she will be watching worlds most heinous crimes on real life tv and realize she was 3.11 when it happened. What is she on about you might ask? I'm talking about the news of 20 children and 6 teachers who lost their lives, at the hand of a gun toting person. If in any way my numbers are incorrect, feel free to update. They were without their parents when it took place at their school. A place we send our babies to learn about the world and today the world learns about them. How do we grasp the reality of our world, how do we navigate life without feeling the weight of the world on us? All we do is pray, pray that never will we have to encounter such loss. That our families are safe always, that we are vigilant in our love to all and that nothing is left unsaid. We are in a position to heal our own lives through this tragedy, by giving all we got. Yes hold your babies extra tight, hold everyone tighter than usual, I know for one I will be. Rest in Paradise to the children and teachers who's lives were cut short. May my prayers of embrace, strength and healing echo across the world to those who sit under griefs umbra.

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Soul Print Mama, the mission of one heaven sent parent backed by the unity of other heaven sent parents and families all over the world. As a Soul Print Mama, I create in the hope I will warm hearts or start a journey into the process of healing.

There is no time frame for when a parent should start to heal. Two years on and I can honestly say I am not there yet. As with most of us, we are such experts at hiding the true feelings we have, feelings I call my Umbra of Grief. This is the place I share my innermost feelings at my lowest of lowest times. I am of the opinion that in order to know true light, you must know true darkness., everything we feel is perfectly okay. Acknowledging all of the emotions we have gives us an inner strength to rise above the cloud. Being able to share and express our feelings without judgment is such a precious commodity, for some reason or another our barriers are so far up there in fear of being hurt.
In my journey, I am finding name honors to be a starting point. It warmed my heart to know that Vikki-Ann was in the thoughts of someone else and that even though she's not here with us physically, her soul print became evident in every word written, candle lit or balloon released in her name.

"Healing may not be so much about getting better, as about letting go of everything that isn't you -- all of the expectations, all of the beliefs -- and becoming who you are." ~ Rachel Naomi Reme